Why lose the exhale when we can continue to inhale?

I gracefully place my fingers over the lips of words touching each individual letter square with softness.
I breathe in, hold, heart beats faster, I listen to the pulse of blood and know that I have to let the air out for my breath to feel my presence tonight. I wipe my eyelids with the back of my two hands as I close my eyes with relaxation bringing both palms together to the center of my chest. Breathing in again I center myself. I stretch my muscles, tilt my head glancing over my shoulder and change the station again and again. I nod my head as I tilt my ear to the side, glancing out the window of darkness.  I pause. Place my warm burning hands over my face, eyelids penetrating warmth through me tilting my head back.  I push the wisps of hair out of my mouth with relief. I smile. I look at my screen. Hands together still I lick the two index fingers lightly. I intertwine eight of my fingers raise them over my head and point the other two up to you my new moon. I bring the knuckle of my right thumb to my third eye and implant what needs to be seen in the indent of clarity. I caress my ankles gently with one stroke and ground myself.
Why is everyone so afraid to bow down on all fours in a pyramid stance and leap forward to bring all limbs together?  Why are you scared to jump forward to create unity? We all want to be one with each other but are all too hesitant to step forward. What makes your cringe with tightened muscles so viciously? Why are you so hesitant to look him or her in the eye with love and light?  Do you need to forgive him, her or maybe yourself?  Do you need to accept this is where you are placed right now to live? We want brief encounters filled with electricity and no tomorrows. We want to be in the moment but do not want to do the work for the next day. We succumb to the mystery because its intriguing but never unlock the story.  We want easiness where we do not thrive or delve into the unknown.  We crave the safety net to surround us so we will not break.  We feel the need to have the last word or choice or decision or hold onto our belief and not drown under water because then we will lose control. We never desire to feel broken because someone may put our pieces together again. Open your eyes and raise your voice. No more hesitation or missing out on wishing... When will we drop the ego and just be? You made it through the night.. Just remember the next time you doubt...

"Living like you're dying

Isn't living at all
Give me your cold hands
Put them on my heart
Raise a glass to everyone
Who thinks they'll never make it through
This life
To live a brand new start

We are
We are
We are going to be alright
We got
We got
We always got the fight in us and

We are
We are
We are going to live tonight
Like there's no tomorrow
'Cause we are the afterlife"-Ingrid Michaelson

New moons are your one chance to start new per month.  We could all die instantly in our next breath taken. Why lose the exhale when we can continue to inhale? Maybe if we tell ourselves enough...

Lets channel under the full moon and manifest

who are we talking to tonight
I am at the end of my wits
Talk to me please
I am tired
Losing hope
Fallen down to many times
Continuosly stood up
Please help
I call on you on this full moon
Pause
Wait
I will listen carefully
Breathe in deeply and release
Shoot

You are in another dimension
You need to pull yourself out
I am in another realm
Step out soon
Remember who you are
Who are you
Why are you here
To live in accordingly to the law
To reach justice
To preach
Never give up feel 
Surrender to mankind
We are in need of a movement drastically within our self and in others
Keep writing
We are here
Fight listen 

Peace forthright
Keep going step out
Dont give up
Praise us dear one t=circle s and circle and circle

Flowers and gratitude and heart warmth and peace 

Stand up we are losing you do not quit 

What do i do 

Love and love some more and more until you pass out
You teach students to give to love to know and do not back down 

No fight For our country is plagued and you are here to move keep going breathe 

What is mankind

Want a straight shoot it fight fight fight

Read and read over again 

You are fallin get back up one more time and fight 

The end is near 

Out of the head into the heart you are here 

Let go of the head and heart will follow 

What do you want who are you

I want love to pour thru the eyes of mankind

I want under this full moon to type with vigor and to love with fierce multitudes of force 

With my head held high shoulders back and not afraid to look each and everyone of you in the eye

If I was able to see everyone of your glances i would be able to fill each and everyone one of you with love which would permeate everyone into one

No more do I drop my head nor shoulders no more

I see the world in front of me and i will rearrange it with light and love 

I will not fall down to my knees anymore 

I am strong enough to stand on my feet

You will not push me over or enter into my being without me allowing you to do so

You have no power over me

I own my power

I release all fear

I am not hesitant no more

I won my surroundings

You will not enter unless I give you permission

I will fight for what needs to be fought for with passion

I will love and you will not bring me to my knees

I am  a very strong woman 

Do not test me or pull me or fight or belittle me

I have had enough and you will have no grasp over me

I love myself and i am never dropping to my knees

I will drop my guard but their is still a protection force around me to keep out any evil or bad energy

Only love permeates my soul and being

I will smile continuously and laugh forever while loving you and myself 

I am free and i am present and aware  

I have done my work and now i will walk my path

So help me dear one

Lets channel

BE still for there is light amongst us...speak love live continue we will hold u up...  Yes keep writing now you  are typing loved alone Keep breathing Your light is arriving Search deep but low for tomorrow may bring misery but the future brings joy We love you We continue to love and will guide you... You hit hurdles but its ok you never doubted us You fell to your knees over and over but continuously got up. Your test is almost fulfilled.  Do not drop your head anymore ...do not doubt human kind as much as you do. We are sorry to put you on the this path. Maybe too much sorrow has given you too much sadness in your heart.  But you continue to have faith and love and continue to be one/ WE are proud of you.  It will start moving fast very soon. Do not run. Your are ahead of yourself. Continue on the the path.  Do not hesitate.  Do not doubt.  You are the purple flower your have been searching for years for. Time to own it.



What am I am bringing to the table my angels
what do i do next
keep smiling and laughing We love it
breathe
I am tired though What do i do
laugh some more tell the truth you are free
But I have been slowly giving up and giving in?
i never had a head rest and now you delight me with one Thankyou


We speak in monotones hesitant to disrupt the ear of the other afraid we may shake or shatter their existence.  Why?

The 100 Post to my Blog

I am sick of cleaning up after you...
Tired of wiping up the mess you have left for me...
Enough already I praise to you...
I sing from the true soul that fiercely escapes my lungs vigorously...
What the hell is wrong with you?
May I ask you dear one who do you think you may be with that smirk upon your face?
I sit here mind blown by the blastemy of our kind...
I clean my floors on my knees tonight and wonder where did everyone go so wrong with the universe...

We quote day in and day out
We post pictures, sayings, jokes, word phrases, artists, music, videos, other peoples blogs, the news...
Scroll down, like, like, dislike, scroll some more, shut off, turn back on again, why is there not a dislike button yet for a multi million company, for gods sake shut the fuck up, goodnight and good morning to you...
Oh lets check in and check out
Let's create a page to get more likes
Promote, promote and here we are again...
Pop up message, alert, event...
Join my game...
Advertise...
Distraction...
My friend of one thousand...
You did not just stalk him or her....
I would like to defriend you my ex or friend i would like to punch in the face...
Let me look at my newsfeed...
I will share...
Deactivate for no distraction...
Where did I go?
I love the instant messenger as if you are more connected to the web than the phone text..
But more in touch with the typing than to be able to pick up the dam phone and have a real conversation...

Yes brutal
Yes truth
Yes clarity
Yes negativity
Yes positivity
Yes wake up

PLEASE

I write for those women who do not speak, for those who do not have a voice because they were so terrified, because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. We’ve been taught that silence would save us, but it won’t. Audre Lorde