LETS START A FIRE EVERYWHERE WE GO UNTIL OUR LIVES ARE BURNING GOLD

Bulb shines dimly to the left of me on my porch, lighting the corner space as I type. I sit here as the new moon does not give us any sign of her presence tonight.  She is a dark moon.  Therefore we will need to go within ourselves. I switch all lights off around me.  I take a deep breath in as I place my hands over my eyes cupping my face and blow the air out forcefully.  "Even I am getting tired of useless desires"-Patty Griffin sings to me over my headphones.

We are all getting tired.....

GOOD

What?

I said GREAT!!!

But We shouldn't be tired?

You should be tired....

You should be exhaustive by now....

You should feel depleted....

Fall the fuck to the ground already!  Get on your knees!  For god sakes lie on the floor!

CRY, CRY, CRY and LET THE TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE TILL YOU SURRENDER!

IT IS OK THE NEW MOON HAS CALLED TO YOU

THIS POWERFUL NEW MOON WANTS YOU TO KNOW THE REAL YOU

SHE WANTS YOU TO CREATE THE WORLD YOU WANT TO DESPERATELY LIVE

We are all at a breaking point but are we able to collect ourselves?

Are we able to continue marching forward with blows to our back?

Will we continue to hold our head high with believing every little thing is going to be alright? Don't worry about a thing cause you know every little thing is going to be alright, right? (quoted:)

This is my message to youuuu whooo hoo? (quoted:) Yes but are you listening to your inner messages and intuitive guidance?

Will there be an answer?

Let it be Let it be Let it be Let it be... Should we whisper words of wisdom or just let it be? (again quoted:)

Should we take our sad song and let her/him under our skin? Should we try to make it better? (lets sing a quote again if you have not realized the musicians I have been stealing words from yet)

If you want it, you got it, you just got to believe Believe in yourself...  Or is it all just a game? (quote quote sing some more)

Is it a new day a new dawn for you?  Are you feeling good? (mmmm which singer is this..quoted)

SING, SING, SING, YELL, YELL, YELL

Questions, doubts, songs, lyrics, words, affirmations wonder through our brains continuously..

TAKE A BREAK ALREADY!!!

Look at yourself in the mirror.

Seriously take a good look...

Then close your eyes, imagine yourself in front of you and embrace yourself.

Hug yourself, take in your own self, love it, speak to who you are and see who you really are.

Yes it may be a hundred percent love, light and happiness but it might have some dark corners that are frustrating, annoying and piercing.

At first it may be scary.  Have you ever actually imagined your body in front of yourself?

We all fantasize about others, places or things being in front of us as we daydream.

We try to picture our future as we our lost into another realm.

But we never mirror ourselves in our fantasy dream world.

We never truly see ourselves being able to create the world we would like to live in.

Our thoughts have so much power to create the future and what we want from the purpose of our position here on earth.

So go ahead..I dare you....It's ok...fantasize about the beautiful or ugly that you are...

If you are not able to do this how is anyone else able to look up to you or believe in you?

How are they able to learn from you ?

How are they able to see you and want to be a better person or learn from you?

How will they be able to love you, like you, smile, joke, laugh, listen, be at peace with you, feel, caress, fight for you?

They will not be able to look through your eyes and see within your true soul if you are not able to see within your own soul...


I FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE TODAY SAW MYSELF IN FRONT OF ME IN A MEDITATION.  NOT JUST MY FACE BUT MY WHOLE BODY.  IT WAS A LITTLE WEIRD MEETING HEATHER BUT I EMBRACED AND HUGGED HER LIKE THERE WAS NO OTHER. I TOOK IN ALL OF HER WITH MY EYES AND TRULY STUDIED HER FROM HEAD TO TOE.  I DIDN'T LIKE THE FACT THAT SHE HAS BUILT SUCH A HIGH WALL AGAINST EMBRACE THAT HER HUG FELT HESITANT TO STEP FORWARD.  I FELT A STREAM OF LOVE THAT WAS YEARNING TO BE AN OCEAN.  BUT HER STRONG DEAMONER AND STANCE FELT LIKE IT COULD NOT BE KNOCKED DOWN.  THERE WAS TWO HALVES TO HER.  PAST AND PRESENT SHE CARRIED WITH HER BUT WITH GREAT STRENGTH. THEREFORE I SHIFTED HER ENERGY AND SHINED MORE LIGHT ONTO HER WITH MUCH LOVE SURROUNDING HER BEING TO REAWAKEN HER TRUE SPIRIT...

all of a sudden my whole body shifted...I was aligned straight up from my feet to my mouth with such great force it awakened me...rays of light and warmth streamed from hands and feet as I came one with my body and came back into the present.

SO WHAT IS MY POINT? "ONE LOVE ONE HEART LETS GET TOGETHER AND FEEL ALRIGHT"?

YES when we are one with ourselves we are one with others

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH YOUR WORDS TODAY? "I GO TO BED BUT SLEEP WONT COME. EVERYTHING IS GOING HIGHER AND HIGHER."

MEDITATE with yourself before you fall to sleep tonight and mirror your eyes looking deep into your soul

"YEA UH HUH YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS. EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT BIG. I GOT THE PEDDLE TO THE MEDAL"

GOOD KEEP GOING DONT GIVE UP you have drive to want to be who you are suppose to be

"CAN YOU BOUNCE WITH ME BOUNCE WITH ME? CAN I GET A WHAT WHAT"?

IF YOU GOT NOTHING YOU BETTER GET UP AND GET SOMETHING let go of your fear and create...create that world that is destined to be with your mind...surrender, believe, change, love and stand up



HAVE YOU HAD ENOUGH? ARE YOU GOING TO STAND UP?
YOU WONT GET THERE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE
HAVE YOU CHASED ENOUGH LUCK?
WE HAVE THE FLAME IN OURSELVES
WE ARE THE WIND THAT CARRIES A CHANGE-CHRISTINA PERRI