SHINE

I love to speak, write, whisper, even yell to you...
Some of you listen but never hear the words...
Continued paths of falling backwards or offtrack...
You may see the exact movements of my lips for your convenience. ..
But to your dismay you do not grasp what I am portraying....

Why?

You will do exactly what your own heart may be telling you...
Everyone wants the approval of others to do what is right...
You need the fulfillment of getting the ok...

Does fireworks get the approval to blow off colors of smoke into midair only to diminish within seconds?

No they fly hard fast up into the sky, explode to let people know they are present by rattling noise shining down over you with beauty...

Beauty of what?

People wait once a year to get the chance to light them on fire...
Once they do they get this thrill in their soul like a child to do something that is only allowed on independence day...
When the fireworks are in the sky that most of you wish you can reach, you smile secretly within yourself...
You get excited about light above that is not necessarily suppose to be there after sunset...
Something unfamiliar, daring, bold, frightening to few and startling...
Therefore we wait patiently and feel the beauty shining down amongst us with delight...

Why lose the exhale when we can continue to inhale?

I gracefully place my fingers over the lips of words touching each individual letter square with softness.
I breathe in, hold, heart beats faster, I listen to the pulse of blood and know that I have to let the air out for my breath to feel my presence tonight. I wipe my eyelids with the back of my two hands as I close my eyes with relaxation bringing both palms together to the center of my chest. Breathing in again I center myself. I stretch my muscles, tilt my head glancing over my shoulder and change the station again and again. I nod my head as I tilt my ear to the side, glancing out the window of darkness.  I pause. Place my warm burning hands over my face, eyelids penetrating warmth through me tilting my head back.  I push the wisps of hair out of my mouth with relief. I smile. I look at my screen. Hands together still I lick the two index fingers lightly. I intertwine eight of my fingers raise them over my head and point the other two up to you my new moon. I bring the knuckle of my right thumb to my third eye and implant what needs to be seen in the indent of clarity. I caress my ankles gently with one stroke and ground myself.
Why is everyone so afraid to bow down on all fours in a pyramid stance and leap forward to bring all limbs together?  Why are you scared to jump forward to create unity? We all want to be one with each other but are all too hesitant to step forward. What makes your cringe with tightened muscles so viciously? Why are you so hesitant to look him or her in the eye with love and light?  Do you need to forgive him, her or maybe yourself?  Do you need to accept this is where you are placed right now to live? We want brief encounters filled with electricity and no tomorrows. We want to be in the moment but do not want to do the work for the next day. We succumb to the mystery because its intriguing but never unlock the story.  We want easiness where we do not thrive or delve into the unknown.  We crave the safety net to surround us so we will not break.  We feel the need to have the last word or choice or decision or hold onto our belief and not drown under water because then we will lose control. We never desire to feel broken because someone may put our pieces together again. Open your eyes and raise your voice. No more hesitation or missing out on wishing... When will we drop the ego and just be? You made it through the night.. Just remember the next time you doubt...

"Living like you're dying

Isn't living at all
Give me your cold hands
Put them on my heart
Raise a glass to everyone
Who thinks they'll never make it through
This life
To live a brand new start

We are
We are
We are going to be alright
We got
We got
We always got the fight in us and

We are
We are
We are going to live tonight
Like there's no tomorrow
'Cause we are the afterlife"-Ingrid Michaelson

New moons are your one chance to start new per month.  We could all die instantly in our next breath taken. Why lose the exhale when we can continue to inhale? Maybe if we tell ourselves enough...

Lets channel under the full moon and manifest

who are we talking to tonight
I am at the end of my wits
Talk to me please
I am tired
Losing hope
Fallen down to many times
Continuosly stood up
Please help
I call on you on this full moon
Pause
Wait
I will listen carefully
Breathe in deeply and release
Shoot

You are in another dimension
You need to pull yourself out
I am in another realm
Step out soon
Remember who you are
Who are you
Why are you here
To live in accordingly to the law
To reach justice
To preach
Never give up feel 
Surrender to mankind
We are in need of a movement drastically within our self and in others
Keep writing
We are here
Fight listen 

Peace forthright
Keep going step out
Dont give up
Praise us dear one t=circle s and circle and circle

Flowers and gratitude and heart warmth and peace 

Stand up we are losing you do not quit 

What do i do 

Love and love some more and more until you pass out
You teach students to give to love to know and do not back down 

No fight For our country is plagued and you are here to move keep going breathe 

What is mankind

Want a straight shoot it fight fight fight

Read and read over again 

You are fallin get back up one more time and fight 

The end is near 

Out of the head into the heart you are here 

Let go of the head and heart will follow 

What do you want who are you

I want love to pour thru the eyes of mankind

I want under this full moon to type with vigor and to love with fierce multitudes of force 

With my head held high shoulders back and not afraid to look each and everyone of you in the eye

If I was able to see everyone of your glances i would be able to fill each and everyone one of you with love which would permeate everyone into one

No more do I drop my head nor shoulders no more

I see the world in front of me and i will rearrange it with light and love 

I will not fall down to my knees anymore 

I am strong enough to stand on my feet

You will not push me over or enter into my being without me allowing you to do so

You have no power over me

I own my power

I release all fear

I am not hesitant no more

I won my surroundings

You will not enter unless I give you permission

I will fight for what needs to be fought for with passion

I will love and you will not bring me to my knees

I am  a very strong woman 

Do not test me or pull me or fight or belittle me

I have had enough and you will have no grasp over me

I love myself and i am never dropping to my knees

I will drop my guard but their is still a protection force around me to keep out any evil or bad energy

Only love permeates my soul and being

I will smile continuously and laugh forever while loving you and myself 

I am free and i am present and aware  

I have done my work and now i will walk my path

So help me dear one

Lets channel

BE still for there is light amongst us...speak love live continue we will hold u up...  Yes keep writing now you  are typing loved alone Keep breathing Your light is arriving Search deep but low for tomorrow may bring misery but the future brings joy We love you We continue to love and will guide you... You hit hurdles but its ok you never doubted us You fell to your knees over and over but continuously got up. Your test is almost fulfilled.  Do not drop your head anymore ...do not doubt human kind as much as you do. We are sorry to put you on the this path. Maybe too much sorrow has given you too much sadness in your heart.  But you continue to have faith and love and continue to be one/ WE are proud of you.  It will start moving fast very soon. Do not run. Your are ahead of yourself. Continue on the the path.  Do not hesitate.  Do not doubt.  You are the purple flower your have been searching for years for. Time to own it.



What am I am bringing to the table my angels
what do i do next
keep smiling and laughing We love it
breathe
I am tired though What do i do
laugh some more tell the truth you are free
But I have been slowly giving up and giving in?
i never had a head rest and now you delight me with one Thankyou


We speak in monotones hesitant to disrupt the ear of the other afraid we may shake or shatter their existence.  Why?

The 100 Post to my Blog

I am sick of cleaning up after you...
Tired of wiping up the mess you have left for me...
Enough already I praise to you...
I sing from the true soul that fiercely escapes my lungs vigorously...
What the hell is wrong with you?
May I ask you dear one who do you think you may be with that smirk upon your face?
I sit here mind blown by the blastemy of our kind...
I clean my floors on my knees tonight and wonder where did everyone go so wrong with the universe...

We quote day in and day out
We post pictures, sayings, jokes, word phrases, artists, music, videos, other peoples blogs, the news...
Scroll down, like, like, dislike, scroll some more, shut off, turn back on again, why is there not a dislike button yet for a multi million company, for gods sake shut the fuck up, goodnight and good morning to you...
Oh lets check in and check out
Let's create a page to get more likes
Promote, promote and here we are again...
Pop up message, alert, event...
Join my game...
Advertise...
Distraction...
My friend of one thousand...
You did not just stalk him or her....
I would like to defriend you my ex or friend i would like to punch in the face...
Let me look at my newsfeed...
I will share...
Deactivate for no distraction...
Where did I go?
I love the instant messenger as if you are more connected to the web than the phone text..
But more in touch with the typing than to be able to pick up the dam phone and have a real conversation...

Yes brutal
Yes truth
Yes clarity
Yes negativity
Yes positivity
Yes wake up

PLEASE

I write for those women who do not speak, for those who do not have a voice because they were so terrified, because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. We’ve been taught that silence would save us, but it won’t. Audre Lorde

ALL FOR ONE AND ONE FOR ALL

I step back..
Hesitant to type blasphemy....
Crinkled nose wondering do I dare...
Funny how I know your secrets...
Without asking...
Does this make you uncomfortable?
Insecure maybe?
Nah you are more than that...
But do I need to tell you?
Uplift you?
Make you the person you are meant to be..
I am not scared...
I might have just made myself known..
Cut through the bull shit..

I step up...
No doubt to keep me from moving forward any longer...
Peaceful light comes over me..
Sarcastically I boldly have no filter..
I speak clearly...
This does not make you step back?
Want to give up now?
You do have the chance to quit and just walk away...
But why am I feeling my fingertips?
Am I shocked?
Make me the person I am suppose to be...
Now I dare you..
I might have just dropped my head and fallen to the ground...
Let's not beat around the bush this time around....

Where Does the Good Go

Do I sit here patiently waiting for a break or do I lash out with no filter?

i open the door and walk through with all my might, tilt my head back with sunshine kissing my eyelids

Should I keep my mouth shut quietly or scream from the top of my lungs for everyone to hear my bellows?

i will conserve my energy wisely while breathing deeply from the highest volcano top

Do I crack the lid that has been boiling over or take it off and let it run all down the pot?

i decided to just let the lava run its course for the lessons needed to be learned from the universe

Should I ?

Instead I just laugh

I say thank you, thank you, thank you over and over like a broken record

I smile to myself and say OK

I giggle again uncontrollably

I do not cry, shout nor think of the possibility of this madness...

I am not even flinching at the mere fact I am standing in burning molten rock

Slap me in the face...I will turn the other cheek...

Suspend me into thin air...I will answer with alright and walk away...

Give me another catastrophe to deal with and I will take it head on...

Is this all you got?

Oh am I showing strength?

Should I be cradled?

Do you feel the need to give me pity?

No please no...

I do not have all the answers for myself or for you even right now...

I have accepted so much that tomorrows lessons blur out the ones from yesterday...

I know this phase of climbing up, stumbling down, getting back up, pushed back down and standing back up again is a blessing from the high above...

I welcome it with only peace..

I know..

I believe..

I sing..

I keep laughing...

Lets not make it harder than it has to be...

My itunes radio has left me with this last acoustic song from Tegan and Sara (Where does the good go) I have never heard before...I think I may like it therefore I will share with you....as I use my purple painted calloused fingers from continuous guitar strumming and dabble into learning how to play this tune just for now...

LETS START A FIRE EVERYWHERE WE GO UNTIL OUR LIVES ARE BURNING GOLD

Bulb shines dimly to the left of me on my porch, lighting the corner space as I type. I sit here as the new moon does not give us any sign of her presence tonight.  She is a dark moon.  Therefore we will need to go within ourselves. I switch all lights off around me.  I take a deep breath in as I place my hands over my eyes cupping my face and blow the air out forcefully.  "Even I am getting tired of useless desires"-Patty Griffin sings to me over my headphones.

We are all getting tired.....

GOOD

What?

I said GREAT!!!

But We shouldn't be tired?

You should be tired....

You should be exhaustive by now....

You should feel depleted....

Fall the fuck to the ground already!  Get on your knees!  For god sakes lie on the floor!

CRY, CRY, CRY and LET THE TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE TILL YOU SURRENDER!

IT IS OK THE NEW MOON HAS CALLED TO YOU

THIS POWERFUL NEW MOON WANTS YOU TO KNOW THE REAL YOU

SHE WANTS YOU TO CREATE THE WORLD YOU WANT TO DESPERATELY LIVE

We are all at a breaking point but are we able to collect ourselves?

Are we able to continue marching forward with blows to our back?

Will we continue to hold our head high with believing every little thing is going to be alright? Don't worry about a thing cause you know every little thing is going to be alright, right? (quoted:)

This is my message to youuuu whooo hoo? (quoted:) Yes but are you listening to your inner messages and intuitive guidance?

Will there be an answer?

Let it be Let it be Let it be Let it be... Should we whisper words of wisdom or just let it be? (again quoted:)

Should we take our sad song and let her/him under our skin? Should we try to make it better? (lets sing a quote again if you have not realized the musicians I have been stealing words from yet)

If you want it, you got it, you just got to believe Believe in yourself...  Or is it all just a game? (quote quote sing some more)

Is it a new day a new dawn for you?  Are you feeling good? (mmmm which singer is this..quoted)

SING, SING, SING, YELL, YELL, YELL

Questions, doubts, songs, lyrics, words, affirmations wonder through our brains continuously..

TAKE A BREAK ALREADY!!!

Look at yourself in the mirror.

Seriously take a good look...

Then close your eyes, imagine yourself in front of you and embrace yourself.

Hug yourself, take in your own self, love it, speak to who you are and see who you really are.

Yes it may be a hundred percent love, light and happiness but it might have some dark corners that are frustrating, annoying and piercing.

At first it may be scary.  Have you ever actually imagined your body in front of yourself?

We all fantasize about others, places or things being in front of us as we daydream.

We try to picture our future as we our lost into another realm.

But we never mirror ourselves in our fantasy dream world.

We never truly see ourselves being able to create the world we would like to live in.

Our thoughts have so much power to create the future and what we want from the purpose of our position here on earth.

So go ahead..I dare you....It's ok...fantasize about the beautiful or ugly that you are...

If you are not able to do this how is anyone else able to look up to you or believe in you?

How are they able to learn from you ?

How are they able to see you and want to be a better person or learn from you?

How will they be able to love you, like you, smile, joke, laugh, listen, be at peace with you, feel, caress, fight for you?

They will not be able to look through your eyes and see within your true soul if you are not able to see within your own soul...


I FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE TODAY SAW MYSELF IN FRONT OF ME IN A MEDITATION.  NOT JUST MY FACE BUT MY WHOLE BODY.  IT WAS A LITTLE WEIRD MEETING HEATHER BUT I EMBRACED AND HUGGED HER LIKE THERE WAS NO OTHER. I TOOK IN ALL OF HER WITH MY EYES AND TRULY STUDIED HER FROM HEAD TO TOE.  I DIDN'T LIKE THE FACT THAT SHE HAS BUILT SUCH A HIGH WALL AGAINST EMBRACE THAT HER HUG FELT HESITANT TO STEP FORWARD.  I FELT A STREAM OF LOVE THAT WAS YEARNING TO BE AN OCEAN.  BUT HER STRONG DEAMONER AND STANCE FELT LIKE IT COULD NOT BE KNOCKED DOWN.  THERE WAS TWO HALVES TO HER.  PAST AND PRESENT SHE CARRIED WITH HER BUT WITH GREAT STRENGTH. THEREFORE I SHIFTED HER ENERGY AND SHINED MORE LIGHT ONTO HER WITH MUCH LOVE SURROUNDING HER BEING TO REAWAKEN HER TRUE SPIRIT...

all of a sudden my whole body shifted...I was aligned straight up from my feet to my mouth with such great force it awakened me...rays of light and warmth streamed from hands and feet as I came one with my body and came back into the present.

SO WHAT IS MY POINT? "ONE LOVE ONE HEART LETS GET TOGETHER AND FEEL ALRIGHT"?

YES when we are one with ourselves we are one with others

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH YOUR WORDS TODAY? "I GO TO BED BUT SLEEP WONT COME. EVERYTHING IS GOING HIGHER AND HIGHER."

MEDITATE with yourself before you fall to sleep tonight and mirror your eyes looking deep into your soul

"YEA UH HUH YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS. EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT BIG. I GOT THE PEDDLE TO THE MEDAL"

GOOD KEEP GOING DONT GIVE UP you have drive to want to be who you are suppose to be

"CAN YOU BOUNCE WITH ME BOUNCE WITH ME? CAN I GET A WHAT WHAT"?

IF YOU GOT NOTHING YOU BETTER GET UP AND GET SOMETHING let go of your fear and create...create that world that is destined to be with your mind...surrender, believe, change, love and stand up



HAVE YOU HAD ENOUGH? ARE YOU GOING TO STAND UP?
YOU WONT GET THERE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE
HAVE YOU CHASED ENOUGH LUCK?
WE HAVE THE FLAME IN OURSELVES
WE ARE THE WIND THAT CARRIES A CHANGE-CHRISTINA PERRI

Silence is a virtue We are all one by love only

Silence is a virtue.....But what does virtue actually mean? What does this quote signify? Obviously I have not written in awhile. Why? Life has moved at a very fast pace for me lately as I have accomplished, moved extremely forward and I have gone within. I have no need or urge to speak from my heart for the whole world to listen to my bellows. I am in complete silence. I have come to a quiet stance where I have open and closed ALL my doors that needed to be revisted or dealt with. My buttons were finally pushed for tears to stream uncontrollably out of my eyes to break the wall that I have built so high from many disappointments, failures and struggles to not give up on the drastic decision that i made seven years ago. Therefore I will give you the defintion of VIRTUE through the eyes of Christianity and Buddhism for you to be familar with where I may be. Love and light until I write and blog to you again...

CHRISTIANITY

The three theological virtues are
Faith, Hope and Love, a list which comes from 1 Corinthians 13:13

The same chapter describes love as the greatest of the three, and further defines love as "patient, kind, not envious, boastful, arrogant, or rude."

(The Christian virtue of love is sometimes called charity and at other times a Greek word agape is used to contrast the love of God and the love of humankind from other types of love such as friendship or physical affection.)

The Bible mentions additional virtues, such as in the "Fruit of the Holy Spirit," found in Galatians 5:22-23: "By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit it is benevolent-love: joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, benevolence, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is absolutely no law against such a thing."

BUDDHISM

Buddhist practice as outlined in the Noble Eightfold Path can be regarded as a progressive list of virtues.
Right View - Realizing the Four Noble Truths 

Right Mindfulness - Mental ability to see things for what they are with clear consciousness

Right Concentration - Wholesome one-pointedness of mind 

Buddhism's four brahmavihara ("Divine States") can be more properly regarded as virtues in the European sense.
They are:

Metta/Maitri: loving-kindness towards all; the hope that a person will be well; loving kindness is "the wish that all sentient beings, without any exception, be happy."

Karuṇā: compassion; the hope that a person's sufferings will diminish; compassion is the "wish for all sentient beings to be free from suffering.

Mudita: altruistic joy in the accomplishments of a person, oneself or other; sympathetic joy -"the wholesome attitude of rejoicing in the happiness and virtues of all sentient beings."

Upekkha/Upeksha: equanimity, or learning to accept both loss and gain,praise and blame, success and failure with detachment, equally, for oneself and for others. Equanimity means "not to distinguish between friend, enemy or stranger, but to regard every sentient being as equal. It is a clear-minded tranquil state of mind - not being overpowered by delusions, mental dullness or agitation."

Love and light
Namaste
We are all one
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But will be moving to a new blog site...
Until we meet again...
Believe and love